They aren't as involved as some of the goals I've seen posted in the forums, but I don't reckon I did too bad for a first time outing, and these are my goals, not someone else's... While I did use other peoples goals in figuring out how to do it, I had to work out what was right and achievable for me. They'll probably get rejigged a few times over the year, number wise, but the way I'll get there won't change.
Now comes the really hard part.
Da Da Daaaa
While I had no qualms whatever about what to write, I had a BIG problem with the whole 'make it public' thing.
I was more than okay with letting my closest family and friends (BM, DS, DD & BFF) know what I was doing, my issue was with letting my wider family know... lol wider family... ain't any of them wider than me! There was only a couple of them that worried me, but they were enough to possibly derail this task completely.
Voice popped in for a visit that day, and convinced me that if I told anyone about my plan, they would be sniggering up their sleeve at me. Rolling their eyes. Laughing. Judging.
So I went to my local 12WBT Facebook page (great bunch of peeps on there) and it was suggested that if I didn't feel that shouting it from the rooftop (via Facebook) was something I could do, then perhaps post the commitment on that page instead. BRILLIANT! But was that in keeping with the spirit of the task?
I didn't think it was.
So I went to DD with my dilemma. I explained to her what the task entailed, what Voice had said, and what I was afraid of, and she said
"Mum, just do it."
She said Voice was probably wrong. She said that what I was afraid of might never happen, and that I have to give those people the chance to be supportive. That if they weren't, then *^@# them, because I have the unconditional love and support of her, BM, DS & BFF, not to mention 12WBT'ers everywhere.
I mean, it's not as if me being fat was going to be a surprise to them or anything, it was just that most of them had never ever mentioned it, so I didn't know where they stood, and that was frightening.
Anyway, I did it. I told Facebook, and the response was... overwhelming, and I cried. With every comment. I cried.
So without further ado, here it is. My Commitment to myself, to my family, to Michelle, and to the world.
These are the responses from various family & friends:
(I have purposefully kept their names with their post because some of those that posted truly surprised me)
So now this is where I'm at. Crying (again) happy tears the day before the program officially begins and I am so very excited!
Just one thing...
When did my baby girl get so smart???